Why is it that when someone comes to us and says that we do not have to suffer, we refuse the idea. Could it be that somewhere, on an internal level, we are addicted to our suffering? Our own sadness? That statement alone can be triggering to many. Any normal person would hear this and say “That can’t be the truth, why would I be addicted to something that hurts me? That leaves me feeling empty inside?” Why are people addicted to substances? One may argue that although the end result is unfulfilling, the high, although harmful, feels good. Easy. Suffering re-affirms the shit story you make up in your head about your life. Being right feels good to you. When you constantly prepeat the story about how much your life sucks and it continually plays out in your love life, finances, family, relationships, or whatever the fuck else, you are re-affirmed that your story is correct and that is familiar to you so you keep doing it. It’s likely the pattern is so deep that you don’t even realize you’re doing it. It has become an auto-pilot program in your mind, you don’t even have to think, it just happens, it’s the way your brain has learned to process. We are so addicted to our negativity and unhappiness that we not only play it out everyday of our lives, but we spill it onto others. And the moment anyone comes along and presents an idea that may have us question our ‘truth’, aka the reality we’ve created in our mind, we put up a wall of defense and not only say things like “I can’t” but go as extreme as saying things like “No one can.” We try to limit others outside of us with the same barriers we have set on ourselves simply because misery loves company and the idea of someone proving us wrong wounds our ego. Have I lost you yet? It’s a vicious cycle you see. Had anyone come into my life a few years ago and said such things to me, I would tell them to fuck right off. Because it would make me uncomfortable and most likely angry and instead of hearing them out at the chance that I might learn a new perspective, I would shut them down and fight it. Believe it or not, it’s a safety mechanism. Although there is no physical harm, when we believe a specific idea as our truth and someone questions it, our mind feels attacked and internally screams DANGER because we identify ourselves with said thought,, so in order to protect ourselves and what we believe to be real, we fight it. Why would I give a chance to something that I feel like is putting me under attack? You are now in fight or flight, there is no time to think critically, you react out of fear. That is just the part of you that wants to keep you safe, there should not be shame around that. The matter of the fact is whatever you believe with every fiber of your being as the truth is your fucking truth. Believe you can’t? Damn right. Believe you can? Fuck yeah. Your barriers are built and instilled by you. But dude, hear me when I say your life doesn’t have to be miserable and you are allowed to be happy. This is not me saying that it’s going to be smooth sailing 100% of the time. Some seasons are going to be hard and your heart will hurt and you will be tested, but a tree can only grow to the heavens if its roots have touched the depths of hell. And that’s just the way it goes, the natural flow of the universe. Sometimes you’re going to be lost and confused and fucking sad. But alongside that, sometimes you are going to feel so fulfilled within your heart that tears of joy will stream down your face in such gratitude that you have the capacity to experience such euphoria.
Everything is perfect, you are perfect. All is exactly as it should be per the divine. And a part of you will say but how can that be? There is so much misery in this world, I just don’t understand. And to that, I say you don’t need to understand because the limited human mind is logical but the universe is magical and you can not make sense of magic with logic.
Think about this. Anybody can have faith when things are going their way. When you love your job and you’re making all the money and your family is happy and all that good stuff, of course you’re gonna have faith and say life is good. That’s not what faith is. That’s easy, anybody can do that. But when you trust at the times that nothing is going your way and shit is just hitting the fan and you dont get it, it just doesnt make any fucking sense, thats faith. Trusting through the storm is faith. Not understanding but still knowing, and I mean that knowing deep in your heart that you are taken care of and the universe is always working in your favor even when your human brain can’t see it, that’s what it means to really have faith. That takes courage, that takes strength.