You don’t always want what you think you want, you want how you think it’ll make you feel. And sometimes it takes getting it to make you realize that it was never the answer.
Yesterday I received something. Something that I wanted more than I wanted air to breathe just less than one year ago. And I don’t want it.
I got something that I thought with my entire mind, body, and soul that I wanted, and it took having it placed in my hand to realize that it isn’t for me.
It didn’t bring me the joy or fulfillment I thought it would, it didn’t make me feel any better about myself or my place in the world.
In fact it made me realize, even though it may be unfathomable right now, you don’t always want the things you think you want.
You want how you think they’ll make you feel.
And you can get everything you ever thought you wanted in this life, but if you’re not good within yourself, none of it will ever be enough.
You’ll spend your whole life chasing just to realize that the answer to your fulfillment was never outside of you but always lied within.